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I was going to choose another title for this post, because I thought the phrase is perfectly describe what phase I'm in now. Then I remember I had read the same words arrangement few days ago, on someone else's blog, so I gave it up. However, it is likely I would pop the phrases somewhere in the middle of these sentences. 

Graduation day, according to the latest official announcement, is one and a half month away. Some friends have landed both permanent and freelance jobs since the beginning of April. While I'm here, haven't comitted to any company, yet. 

I'm not that worried, actually. [a brief pause] 

Ok, gotta admit: I'm worried... in a sense that there are the needs of being productive (yeah rightttt), not staying at home all day (!), meeting people, facing challenges (or troubles), and basically, make a living on my own. 

"Well, welcome to the real life!" they say. Earlier on January, my friend (call her M) and I were speaking this kind of topic. M told me that one of our mutual friends said, she'd rather choose to study forever and get the doctoral degree (not only master!), than facing the reality (job-hunting etc). We were laughing that time. But I knew for sure, deep down inside us, a similar thought have crossed our minds - once or twice (or even more?). Especially the "facing the reality" part. Haha. Come to think of it, the "can I study forever?" question is rather silly because we're all students of life, along our lives, until our very last breath. We can learn from any thing, any one, not merely in the form of "attending classes-and-making assignments". 

I'd like to see the transition from uni life to the real jungle as a journey to another phase of one's life. For me, moving on to the next phase is scary yet exciting because of these points: 

- there are some parts of me which afraid 

- another part of me have wondered what the following days would be 

- a little optimistic part of me 

- while the rest part of me is doing its main job: thinking, evaluating, sending, re-thinking. 

In the end, this time I would like to close the post with a quote: 

Most of good things happen without a plan: friendships, falling in love, finding a job, and so on. If you want to make your new year count, you'll need to be intentional - not by setting goals, but by making space in your life for what really matters.
- Jeff Goins